Haiku Skidoo

I'm always dancing.

The songs playing in my head

are held in my heart.

Caramel Coated

One thing I really don't like about me is how I feel after getting in trouble.

Before I started going to elementary school my brother told me that if you cried in school you'd get kicked out. I've always been a cryin' type o' gal so this was something that really put me on edge. As a kid I rarely even spoke, mainly in school, for I feared I would be punished for one thing or the other. Even if I teacher would just call me out for, say, chewing gum, I would turn red and feel like I was gonna cry. Then I'd think "if I cry, I will get in more trouble." It was just awful. I hated having that attention placed on me. I rarely like any sort of attention on me, so the negative type was just terrible and difficult for me to handle.

Now because I have been always so careful so that I won't get in trouble with any type of authority figure I still am not good at handling how I feel after I actually do get in trouble.

I just got off the phone a little bit ago where I was being called out and I felt really guilty. It was just a misunderstanding, but still I feel like I did something wrong and I just can't seem to shake this feeling. I just need to take a deep breath and move on. I just think it's crazy that in my twenty-one years of life I still can't handle being in trouble.

Oh well. Just gotta work on it.

The Tannest I'll Ever Be

I really do just love my life.

I was sitting at the kitchen table eating chicken I made in the microwave, organic popcorn, and apple slices. I had my laptop open and was watching All Dogs Go To Heaven (which has a lot of adult themes that I didn't remember at all). Then I just thought to myself how happy I am.

I have been spending a lot of time sitting at my house and not doing a lot. I literally have found myself just sitting on the couch or on my bed without anything. Just sitting there. My parents come in and ask "aly, what are you doing?" I just keep tellin' 'em,

"just livin' my life."

I really can't put it any other way. If nothing else, I am just so lucky that I can find myself doing nothing and getting filled up with the same good feelings I get when I see my close friends or doing something ridiculously fun.

So yeah, I love my life.

On and On

I think I'm old enough to realize that things aren't that big of a deal.

I know that everything changes so often that we can't hold onto the way things are for too long.

However any situation turns out is what is supposed to happen.

    My body understands this a little better than my mind.
I swear, it's like my body has just evolved to handle things that are emotional.

    I cry for like a few minutes and it feels nice,

but all too soon I can't actually cry without having to think about it.

   I just understand a little too well that not everything is going to rip apart my world.

Moments after anything sad happens it all just keeps on goin'.

   Ain't no stoppin' cuz it just don't matter none to sit and dwell on the shit. 

I know this is totally a cliche, BUT life is just too short.

   It's too short to sit around holding grudges and hating everyone.

Everything is just okay.
   Just gotta live yo' life.



Also, has there ever been an attractive and/or well dressed person in the audience of America's Funniest Home Videos?
                      just wonderin'.

                                                                                                    jk we all know the answer to that one.

Enigmatic, But Modest

There are so many ways to say

 exactly

what we want that it overwhelms me at times.

Countless meanings to the same words and phrases.

I can fill in all of this

 space

 with letters,

but I don't think I know the right combination

 of symbols that will fully express what it is I need to say.

There are endless things to proclaim

 and I want

 to tell you something more specific

 than this.

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Edit

The post I had here didn't fit. It didn't sit well in this little blog o' mine.
Sometimes I feel like this thing is just filled with things in my heart.
The post that was here didn't have a place in my heart.
LOLOL
-Aly

Knock-Out

I'm never going to be good at smack talkin'.

My family decided to have our annual 4th of July party on the 3rd. Every year there are multiple sport type games to play and be competitive. We got some badminton, bags, and basketball. I just am inwardly competitive because I've learned that I always get too frustrated with how terrible I am at almost all sports. I just try to enjoy them instead and then I usually do better. My sister ultra competitive and really good at like every sport. SO YEAH. She usually teams up with Jeff (close family friend) with every team sport because they both are expertly humorous smack talkers and are craaazy competitive. Carly was at a party for awhile so Jeff and I teamed up in badminton. He told me I'm not as good as my sister and that she needs to come back so he could actually win. Whatevaaa. (even though it kinda hurt cuz everyone was talkin about how i'm not very good and it was my fault that whichever team i was on lost. :/)

ANYWHO...

Jeff was like "Aly! Step up your smack talk!"

and I was just like "Okay." So I turned to the other team like,

"You guys are going down maybe!"





I also, inevitably, get hit smack in the face with a basketball every year.