Round Two

Fight!

Just kidding. I don't know if I have it in me.

Words Words Words

This is a story.

I hope it isn't boring.

Goodness Me

I feel melancholy.

I also think that Melancholy would be a pretty name

for a dog.









I just want to go in a little hut
and be wrapped in a big comforter with a sweet boy
 while it rains outside.

That is a thought I have sometimes when I feel like this.

Not Much

One step foreward.

One step back.

I will run half way there.

I will stop and turn around.

I do need to go somewhere.

I do not need to get anywhere.

I just want to be still.
Still, I just want to be.

Haiku Skidoo

I'm always dancing.

The songs playing in my head

are held in my heart.

Caramel Coated

One thing I really don't like about me is how I feel after getting in trouble.

Before I started going to elementary school my brother told me that if you cried in school you'd get kicked out. I've always been a cryin' type o' gal so this was something that really put me on edge. As a kid I rarely even spoke, mainly in school, for I feared I would be punished for one thing or the other. Even if I teacher would just call me out for, say, chewing gum, I would turn red and feel like I was gonna cry. Then I'd think "if I cry, I will get in more trouble." It was just awful. I hated having that attention placed on me. I rarely like any sort of attention on me, so the negative type was just terrible and difficult for me to handle.

Now because I have been always so careful so that I won't get in trouble with any type of authority figure I still am not good at handling how I feel after I actually do get in trouble.

I just got off the phone a little bit ago where I was being called out and I felt really guilty. It was just a misunderstanding, but still I feel like I did something wrong and I just can't seem to shake this feeling. I just need to take a deep breath and move on. I just think it's crazy that in my twenty-one years of life I still can't handle being in trouble.

Oh well. Just gotta work on it.

The Tannest I'll Ever Be

I really do just love my life.

I was sitting at the kitchen table eating chicken I made in the microwave, organic popcorn, and apple slices. I had my laptop open and was watching All Dogs Go To Heaven (which has a lot of adult themes that I didn't remember at all). Then I just thought to myself how happy I am.

I have been spending a lot of time sitting at my house and not doing a lot. I literally have found myself just sitting on the couch or on my bed without anything. Just sitting there. My parents come in and ask "aly, what are you doing?" I just keep tellin' 'em,

"just livin' my life."

I really can't put it any other way. If nothing else, I am just so lucky that I can find myself doing nothing and getting filled up with the same good feelings I get when I see my close friends or doing something ridiculously fun.

So yeah, I love my life.