The Word You Are Looking For Is Angst

I could put a lot of swear words here.
BUT that won't get me anywhere now, will it?
No. It won't.

So whatever.

I don't know me too well anymore. This place is killa on my identity n' shiit.

Yeah, Angst.

–noun, plural äng·ste  /ˈɛŋkstə/ [engk-stuh] .

a feeling of dread, anxiety, or anguish.